Really proud
How can I feel proud? It's never been a natural thing for me, to feel extremely good about myself. There's always something missing, something I could do better, should do better. Sometimes its hard to look at yourself and say 'I'm proud of myself for doing this.' I realized that being proud of yourself is important. Martha Washington said, I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition.
I want to live that out, whatever the circumstances. I am proud of myself, the question is, are you?
that was a really beautiful post, thank you so much for writing it.
"I am proud of myself. The question is, are you?"
when I got to the end of your post and saw this question it hit me harder than i expected it to. Looking back at everything that I've done right, everything that I've done wrong, every mistake I've made and all the regrets I have, am I proud of me? I'm not perfect, I suppose that is a given. And I'm not conditioned to feel proud of myself- that makes this question a harder one to answer, I suppose. I have self harmed before, I'm not proud of that. I've been weak enough to let people down a lot and I'm definitely not proud of that. On my journey to recovery, one that's still underway, there's been alot of things that I'm not proud of. But I've made milestones. One month clean became two and two became four. My self image is something I'm always looking to improve. I'm proud cause I was (finally) able to come out to my friends as Bisexual.
I'm broken in many ways, but I now realise that despite my cracks and fractures and imperfections, I'm learning to be proud of who I am.
I am proud of me.
Dear Newromantic, what a great post. I always believe that life is an adventure we all have to live. Being inperfect is perfection as this is exactly how we all are supposed to be, imperfect beings.
I am proud to read of your milestones And your self acceptance. This is a great message of hope for many on their recovery way.
Loved your last statement;
"I'm broken in many ways, but I now realise that despite my cracks and fractures and imperfections, I'm learning to be proud of who I am".
PS: you are an amazing writer. Keep writing,
XoXo
Alchemist8