Need buddy gratitude or positive listeners

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so basically, just as I stated, I’m having really hard time with positive thinking and it’s not because I don’t want to or because I just feel bad. It’s because basically I had people and he’ll beware it so they basically half of the people that took the great advantage of me basically sucked out my positivity. They never learned.

Wanted to learn that from me and when you don’t have like friends or if you don’t really have a close people or like that super you know ki circuit crashed. It’s really hard and I want to practice it these days more than ever before I need encouragement and I need comfort. I mean I don’t need help like in a sense of coping or something. I just really need that. Someone has empathy and gives me the support not help and basically the people that took the great advantage of me. I noticed the similar patterns where they very similarly wrote the message alike and it sounded this way “hey I noticed that you’re positive person or you radiate this energy.” “I want to be around someone positive I’m so negative and everything”

you know and since I was friendly, and I was annoying anything beside that I didn’t want to be alone because I was also having a hard time so for the second company, I got stuck in the loop of people that were genuine and true, and also suddenly one day they are gone and you don’t know what’s happening and I just you know I just wanted to be at the same amount of what they took from me in the beginning.

It looked like they would you know like be with me or give me the energy pack you know they seemed to open, but it was not true so now that I see it and that I’m basically by myself and you know, especially if you don’t have like family members that you can like confined to or you feel like you just I have feel like for example, relative where I feel like it’s…

Just by this point I told him so many times how hard it is that it’s just feels like you know you need people that would be willing to spend time with you and practice this positivity, especially since the family issues are really draining and if you live under the same roof, where is the judgment or energy that is also not positive it’s very hard to keep yourself strong because no one says this it is so invisible on the outside but I just want to say I feel crushed. I feel tired every day and I want to do better with my life before this year end..

So if you have any quote if you would like to talk about affirmations or the way you maintain positivity or you know like religious support each other than here. I am waiting for any kind message. I can get to really get through this week and to not always just think that you have to get through the day because you deserve so much more. We deserve to live and I don’t want to always be in this pain and feel like when I have this pity..

I can’t give myself enough comfort so it always goes up and down and I feel like I can’t remain in the better mood because I just can’t really help the feelings and I know that the healing is long. It’s a process, but I don’t want to feel like I’m waiting for something better because I would like to do it now or well with the real people that also want to get out of the pain and think more positive.

thank you🙏🏻💜❤️‍🩹🐙🧡✊🏻❤️🤞🏻💞