5 Questions

heyya @fristo how have you been? 

Let me journal more here. Maybe I will get my answers!

I joined 7cups in August 2016 and left last year in March (2024). I left because I had exhausted myself here. I had done everything I could have done, and I lost interest in continuing. Plus, more areas of my life were demanding more of my attention. 

I know some people who I worked/talked with for so long must have thought about me in my absence. Being honest, I did not remember anyone in particular while I was away but I did miss the general 'fristo happy vibe', the feeling of uplifting the environment and creatively making people happy. Maybe it's just this that brings me back, or is not letting me drop 7cups completely. 

I used to host hours in positivity chatrooms (even though I abused my energies most of the times, but I miss being cheerful and uplifting for all). It so happened that I could draft a positivity project (which I hear is on hold these days), and the project brought many cheers in the community with people cherishing goodness in one another. All this did move me, and kept me going and doing more and more while I was here. 

Initially I had joined 7cups to tackle loneliness, but it also led to all the joy-giving tendencies expressing through me. It's the second part that I want to live over and over again. The first part (tackling loneliness) is out of question now. I have found much more meaningful answers to that now. 

Even for the second part, I am no longer sure I can continue at 7cups for that. I was hardly ever a balanced presence here. And that's not good for me or for people I interact with -it's escaping life, it's escaping sorrows, it's distraction -there is no permanent answer to bigger questions of life in that. 

With all this said, I sincerely and deeply have wished (and wish at this moment too) only and only the good and the purest of things for everyone including my own mind. I want that which is truly and lastingly good for all and good for me. And may all have such an inspired and meaningful life journey! And make the best use of their time on the mother earth.

Okay, seems like I reached no conclusion writing all of the above, but well, I tried! {I might end up leaving again, or being away, or staying, I am not sure.}

Wait, maybe what I am seeking is your permission. May I go? Is it okay if I go? I wish you well regardless of we meet again or not? Will you live a life that is true to yourself? Promise me that. If ever you get hurt by me, please forgive me. Forgive yourself. Take the best from wherever you go -even if it's lessons of what not to do, and strive for the best you can be!

I do feel little lighter, thank you.

@fristo It saddens me that you came back and I missed you! It says you posted this 11 hours and I wish I was on to see you are return. I can't visit your profile page so you may be gone again. You may or not read this, but I want to let you know I miss you. You have been a dear friend of mine for the past years and have left a forever impression on me, Fristo. You are a genuinely good person overall and you have made a difference in the lives of many. I also want the best for you, so even if it means leaving 7 Cups for good and never returning, I want the best for you. Even if it means never crossing paths with you again, know you are someone I will always consider a friend. I wish you all the happiness, freedom, and peace in the world. I just want you happy. Are you happy, Fristo? Do what brings you joy. Focus and prioritize yourself and your real life. I hope you know how special and wonderful of a person you are no matter what. Please take care! 

Always, Desiree ♡