Yesterday was so nice

I knew I'd be absorbed if he responds. And I was. So I let myself be absorbed for a while, for about a day, letting my daily worries disappear. In the middle I got anxious when he had to attend to something. I felt like he won't write back. It was too difficult for me to concentrate but with trial and error, I did yoga and meditation, gradually had a nice time with myself and then checked text. He did text back. And after waiting a while, we talked even more, and he went to do something, really difficult time to wait, then came back and we talked again. It was satisfying in the end that he didn't keep me hanging before leaving. So I had a good night's sleep.

I was anxious to text him because it doesn't end well. But it ended well yesterday and I'm grateful it didn't take me down a guilt trip to text someone who isn't healthy for me. It was nice, pure calmness. :).