What's wrong with me?
I just cannot seem to want to get up anymore. I'm not actively suicidal but at the same time if were run over by a truck, I wouldn't mind. I've got life insurance so it's not like my family would be screwed. Assetwise, I am worth more dead than alive. I am currently working two jobs and trying to get schoolwork done and have little time to myself. One job is 4 days a week and I am dealing with people yelling at me for mistakes they make on tax returns or their dislike of the tax code. I feel really better when I can do offline reviews because I am not interacting with people but reviewing their work and typing them an email explaining what they need to do. The other job I have is 3 days a week and some people can be so dumb it's infuriating. I can handle the college work when these are done but I don't have much time left in the semester to do this work because of the other jobs. The 3 day job is so it can go regular in the summer so I don't have to deal with unemployment. I just feel like I want to throttle everyone that I am being taken advantage of by the people who supposedly need me and only need me for my income. I have a doctor's appointment (gynocologist) on the 28th and I call in sick for that but by god, this can't keep up and I am sick of people saying "You chose to work this schedule stop complaining." Ummmm this happened because the good job is temporary and working during the weekend keeps the other job. Long game. But god, like I said if I woke up tomorrow dead, I'd be happy. Hell even if I got a bad flu I'd be happy because there' d be 3 days I can just lay back and do nothing
Dear @amusingSea2728,
It sounds like you are very close to a burnout due to this whole very busy schedule so it's totally understandable that you feel like you just want things to stop and give you a break. I understand that you have very good reasons for doing all the work that you do, but if you feel that is affecting your mental and physical health, this is definitely a red flag that you need a change. After all, we all have limits and it's normal. Have you tried to plan a relaxation routine? Like have 1 h/day in which you do something really relaxing. This can help a lot in dealing with stress.. and there are lots of other things that you could try, but first of all it's important to keep in mind that you are in control of all this and you can just take a day off and do something fun if you feel you need that. Don't hesitate to contact me in private if you feel we could try to think about more solutions. And take care! :)
