Seeking help before I go crazy
In need of support. Im emotionally exhausted, have battered self esteem/ confidence, depression, and fear of a psychopath.
Don't do it here. If you need real help, this is not a good place.
@diligentSpring2456 why is that
@charmingLemon2626
I came here because my husband and I are fighting. I told my story to four listeners. Two stopped responding after I told them my story. One blocked me. The other one told me that my husband should leave me because I am a crap wife for not giving him children and I deserve to be alone and unloved.
When I reported the listeners, literally nothing was done.
I went to the chat rooms to ask if there was anyone who will listen or if there is anywhere to report bad listeners and was ignored completely.
Sometimes I feel like I'm on the verge of insanity. I go to my doctor and he adjusts my meds and I feel better.
@angrypoet123 I'm glad that you were able to find the right Dr and treatment for you. As you might know, it takes years for some to find the right Dr, let alone the right medication to treat an illness. I was raised by immature ,neglectful , physically abusive parents, after that I was a was of the state then I was adopted by a narcisst. I'm now 32 and still at the mercy of a narc but I fight when she crosses the line. Unfortunately, it doesn't work in my favor other then to keep me somewhat sane. My point is, at 32yo, actively seeking therapy or treatment with high deductible ins that's not an option to use and very low income for 3+ years and getting no where unless I pay, that's pretty sad on top of that enduring the torment of her emotional abuse still daily. I would do damn near anything to have the right medication at the very least. Again, I'm happy for you, thank you for the simple advice. I wish it was that simple.
@charmingLemon2626
I haven't had experience with a psychopath but my ex husband is a narcissist and I've had simular feelings of depression and feeling like I'm going to go crazy. I still have trouble from time to time replaying events and the things he said continues to play in my mind. I've not sure about your whole situation but the first thing you need to do especially if you don't have children with this person is to go no contact, seek a therapist if that helps (didn't help me but everyone and every therapist is different). The only thing I will say with a therapist is make sure they work with people who have been abused by psycopaths. I found it hard to find someone who really understood the psycological abuse that narcissists put you though and what it does to you mentally. Another thing that has helped me is keeping a journal and becoming more mindful of my feelings and focusing on why I attracted this person in my life. Focussing on the self as well as understanding what kind of person your up against is half the battle. Once you do that you can shield yourself from these what I like to call, (blood sucking vampires) and never attract these people ever again. I'm just 2 years somewhat no contact cause unfountunatly I have a child with this person, so I have a lot of more healing to do but I can tell you it gets a little easier as the months go by. Take it day by day:) Hope this helps. Send me a message if you want to chat more.