Scared
Hey. I'm kinda in a rough situation right now.
I've had very strong empathy for as long as I can remember. And I met this friend in early 2019 that I talk to almost every day. And she has had the worst past. Almost every time we talked she would share a new sad story about her past, and she's far from done. Anyway, in the past few weeks I've been having a lot of trouble stomaching her new stories. Last night I cried for a long time, and I almost never cry. But tonight is when it started to get really bad. She told another story. And I started having trouble breathing and started shaking. And the pain... The emotional pain in my heart was unbearable. And it went on for a very long time. Much longer than I'm used to.
I asked my friends for advice and they said lie down and breathe slowly. I did. But then the scary thing happened. I twitched really badly and at the exact same time I felt pain. Nothing but emotional pain. Not just in my heart but everywhere in my body. It engulfed me. I've never experienced this before. And there was no stimuli. For the first time I felt the pain for no reason. I wasn't thinking of her stories, I wasn't thinking of anything. Just all of a sudden, bam. Pain.
I'm scared. Do any of you know what's wrong with me? And how to go about this? Any answers/advice would be greatly appreciated.