I feel more awake when I'm dreaming
DeepThinker99
April 19th, 2015
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I've told so may lies that I don't know who I am anymore. I have voices in my head that tell me how pathetic and worthless I am, how very little would change if I didn't exist. I am ashamed to say that, although I have lead people to believe that I am recovering, blades are my only friends on those long dark nights when my mind won't let me sleep. That's most nights. I am afraid and alone and hopeless and I wish that I could escape from my head, from expectations, from judgement and from this life. I don't even know whether I'm sane anymore. Does anybody know what I mean? Any advice? Anything?