Being a Human is Hard

What am i supposed to do when school takes time from my personal growth, but my personal and emotional growth also takes time away from school?? An isn't it ironic that Uni has a reputation for encouraging growth but all i feel is how everythign clunks and rattles when it crashes together?

Im not entirely sure if my emotional and mental state is what is clouding over my enjoyment of my choosen major or if my chosen major is not for me and that's what is causing my emotional distress... this is what hell is.