a new life
That is my plan, I need to get away from this emotional abuse, it will never stop, so I will forever be anxious and depressed,.I have strength enough, but not sure about courage. I want to get my sanity back, living with a manic/ narcissistic person is suficating me, I miss my true me. I used to have fun, all I do is get put down and blamed for everything! I just need to get started on a plan, I am fearful, my kids deserve a better life too.
I am on a roller coaster, I try to look for the positive, but there is none and I am feeling bad because I realize there is no hope, he talks to me before work, but not on a personal level, it's like we are co workers. That is not an acceptable life for me, I am too old to start again, but if I keep going like this, my life will be shortened by stress affects on me , and I want to be around for my kids
@jr50
I have never been married nor I ever been in a relationship but I do observed that often on couples. I understand that the whole scenario is draining. Hope you find the strength to follow what you think is best not just for your own sakes but for your child or children's well being as well.
I need to get started on my plan, I am not good at starting over with 2 children, I did it once, but 1 was younger, that was 19 yrs ago, I guess I really didn't learn anything, I am still with yet another toxic person, I am stuck in a vicious cycle! Sometimes I feel that I am too old and tired to go anywhere. Other times I just don't care about anything. He is so toxic, loves himself above everything else! And pretend he is human, when I have known for about 11 years or so that he is a vicious, manipulative, narcissistic, evil being, that is only happy when he gets his way and everything goes as HE plans!
@jr50
Hey, just want you to know you are strong enough to take decision with best scenario. i myself find a close resemblance in your case, moody, selfcentered, egoistic and jealous attitude from my partner. after 2 years of what i thought was a healthy relationship i found a bit of dignity left to stop before it was too late. you are the only person who will know what to do about it, although finding the right answers is harder and you may need someone to understand and listen to your thoughts as you figure things out.