Stuck and mixed up.

I don't know where to start. I don't know how to start. I don't even know what I'm starting. I am stuck and mixed up, my mind and my life. I'm unclear on a lot of things. I'm indecisive. My mind is just a mess, and it's very hard for me to get it straighten out. I've been in the process of getting medication for anxiety, except the process is getting dragged out and complicated. I don't even know what's going to happen or when I'm going to start my medication. Without medication, I am suffering at school where I cannot be relieved of anxiety for even one second throughout the day. My mind is drained. I can't talk to my family. I can't be myself around my family. I don't even know how to be myself.