Playing 3 characters in a broken society..
I understand that the society shape/influence me. I have a lot of debate (inside my head) as to which extent I allow it to do so. Do you also do that.. ? I felt the debate is always happening inside of my head and it also put a lot of tension in my nervous system.
What happens if I follow the society and allow alllll of it to influence me? Or what happens if I don't allow it to influence me at all? Or do I stay in between? If so, what's the best method for me to navigate because now I have 3 characters.. the conform, the midway conform and the absolute non-conform avatar. I'm playing 3 characters and when would I become myself?
Usually my 3 characters try to negotiate the best deal. But I realize it's very energy draining to play 3 characters and I'm wondering why I just don't become the "non conform character" What's holding me back.. am I afraid I don't belong? am I afraid I'm going to be abandoned by my tribe? am I afraid I'm going to be rejected?
.. still figuring it out
@iamdewi33 gives you a giant tiny hug ❤ maybe we are all torn the same ways, maybe we are like that because of our morals and yeah! Possibly a bit of fear. So I say follow your heart, it will lead you in the right direction ❤ don't follow the masses cause sometimes there's a silent m. ❤❤
@iamdewi33
it can be confusing and society and or things in life can be a challenge to do we conform do we rebel.... this is a constant tug of war.....
i think it is good to take in new knowledge and maybe you change a bit because of it that would equal conforming but making changes... in how you view things or act. You are not alone in thinking about this. playing 3 characters is exhausting and you can get lost....
I encourage being yourself ........do not play a part to fit in....... learn always and changing views or evolving views is ok.. being true to yourself is very freeing and better then the playing a part.
@toughTiger6481 this resonated so much, thank you Tiger <3 constant tug of war, indeed inevitable. I also agree about taking wisdom. I do find myself resistant to learn and grow sometimes. Instead of seeing it as lessons and draw wisdom from it, sometimes I fall back into the victim loop, the "why me?".. but yeah
"being true to yourself is very freeing" .. that give me such a big breath of fresh air
appreciate your thoughts, your words. thank you for dropping by to comment on this <3 xx