why is mental health the hardest

Especially if ut lonely enough , with ur thoughts mostly, I try to remind myself of freedom (from cutting of toxic ppl) to more peace now which is TRUE but at the same time my immense struggles w self pity now that I managed to handle somewhat differently tho self defeating thoughts come heavily upon me… it HURTS. There is this emotional void inside I can’t fill n all it asks for is comfort from others. Why it must be always me… I wasnt this way before since I was usually for n on my own w imagination n stuff but when I wanted to meet n interact w ppl, they used their subtle powers n took out my energy n kindness. I still feel empty, it’s been months ..

all I wish for is to inspire n help others learn from my experiences… I need that support circle that’s so hard to find, that’s why I’m pouring my soul here…

now n who knows how long… pain n tiredness is also hard, but mentally nothing can cure it like shift of thoughts or letting these emotional states go since fighting doesn’t help them…

Yk in my mind… emotional emptiness seems persistent, only relief I get when feelings come off of me.