family issues

tw // mentions of verbal/emotional ab*se & family issues

so i wouldnt say i have an abusive family or anything but we definitely all have conflicting personalities and ways of dealing with different situations. my dad is incredibly stern and close-minded with his attitude, hes only of those people who always sounds like they're shouting/mad at you when you're just trying to have a normal conversation. hes really opinionated in his views and not really open to hear aything other people have to say or talk about feelings.

my mom on the other hand is the opposite, shes super sensitive like you could raise your voice by the slightest bit and she'll act like you're super mad at her. she takes everything super personally and whenever anyone is mad about literally ANYTHING, she'll always assume they're mad at her.

you can see how this isn't a good combination and it causes a lot of stress in my household; its not like they fight a lot or anything, but everyone in my family has extremely conflicting personalities and it makes it extremely hard to get along with them or do literally anything as a family together.

a lot of the times, my mom ends up venting to me about my sister or my dad and i have to talk to her about feelings even though she never asks me about mine.

sometimes it feels like im the most emotionally mature person but im too exhausted from them to bother giving them family therapy or whatever so i just try not to get involved.

i wouldn't classify this as emotional, verbal or mental abuse but sometimes i feel like my dad gets really close. i dont know if my situation is serious enough compared to others, i feel so sorry for everyone with severe issues at home but for me i always try to remember that my trauma from my dad is still trauma no matter how severe

in a way, i look up to my parents in terms of who they are, just not what they've done. all of them are pretty immature and its quite annoying to watch from afar. i want to be successful and accomplish the things that they all have, but i dont want to be this kind of parent to my child.

can anyone relate? does any of this even make sense?