disgust
TW
it's all my fault why did I even follow through and trust her whyd I do all those things?? I knew I wasn't comfortable at all and yet I didn't do anything I just let myself be exploited and I'm so disgusting for that I wish I could turn back time but it's all my fault I let myself get exploited like that and she still taunts me with it
it doesn't even hurt I just feel so revolted that I want to throw up and it sends me sick to my core unable to move or think of anything other than it
I'm so sorry I can't even type out the full thing because I'd be so disgusted
@aquaaaaa
*big bear hugs if okie*
I am sorry it happened to you . I understand how hard it to feel disgusted because of something you were forced to do , but lovely, it wasn't your fault ♡
She( whoever she is) gaslighted you into it . I understand that the suddenness and discomfort can make us do stuff that we don't wanna do . Lovely , whatever happened left a big impact on your mind and I am feel it through the seen . I know it will be tough to let go of those pain and feelings that are eatungbyou inside . But we all are here for you ♡
You can always vent your feelings and pain here to us
If you ever need 1on1 support you can always connect to a listener here or message me ♡
You are not alone ♡ You matter ♡ Your feelings and pain are valid ♡ Let out the pain inside ♡ And share smiles ♡
Lots of love to you ♡
Twinkle
@incredibleRainbows2036
*hugs back* i cant thank you enough for helping me earlier in SR and yeah things are pretty tough :( but ill definitely take your offer hehe 💙
@aquaaaaa
I know it's tough but we are in this together ♡ the pain will leave you and your conscience with our constant supportive conversation ♡ and helping you back in SR was both my duty and pleasure ♡
@incredibleRainbows2036
thanks rainbows 💙 i'll get in touch with you soon :)
@aquaaaaa
Sure , take your time ♡ there is no hurry , you can message me whenever you are ready ♡
@aquaaaaa , Aqua, it's okay if can't get it out at one go , whatever it is , that has clearly hurt you. You may not be able to help it now. But just know , somewhere deep and buried in your loving heart that if you have been exploited by someone , whom you trusted as friend , their is only one person who deserves to carry the shame and disgust. And that person is not you . It's hard not take the blame of " letting " something happen. Aren't we all good at it sometimes. To stick out , thinking things would turn up ? Not always a smart move. It doesn't make one disgusting , it's what makes us human.
@Skytied
thank you.. its just that i feel like i couldve prevented it in so many ways but i didnt do anything and just like you said let myself be taken advantage of.. and instead of being able to accept that i still end up disgusted and ashamed of myself while she taunts me with that leverage..
@aquaaaaa
i don’t know you, but I’m very proud of you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. That is the first step to getting better. You didn’t do anything wrong…. The person that exploited you is the one who should feel ashamed.
@Kristynsmama
thank you.. sometimes the feeling of disgust and shame just overwhelms me and im just unable to see past it but still thank you :')
@aquaaaaa
i understand. Shame is a hard thing to overcome.
@Kristynsmama
yeah so it seems.. hopefully ill be able to change that in the future
Whatever it was you have to try to put it behind you. There are plenty of weirdos on here. You know you have hundreds of supporters, we far outweigh the wicked ones! Stay strong, we are all here for you.
@David57
thank you for your support.. im glad to say it didnt happen on cups though :)
My apologies then. I’m still peeved that people can be nasty!!!!
@David57
its all good! i just really hope she doesnt hurt anyone else..
