a feeling
i just feel like there’s a weight on my chest, pulling and always dragging me down. i feel like i can never even breathe freely or ever feel completely relaxed. it’s always just this nagging feeling. i dont know how to get rid of it or if i’ll ever be able to. it’s been here for awhile and the only time it ever went away is when my mind finally stopped racing with thoughts constantly. my chest always hurts and it’s just this deep deep weight on it that makes my stomach drop.
Hey @chels384, nice to meet you and really, you've worded what I've only felt. ❤ I think it's powerful being able to acknowledge how we feel, and "articulate" or express it in someway. You did a great job at it.
That heavy feeling is indeed quite heavy, and the pulling-down feels rather overwhelming, specially when it seems difficult to breathe freely under all the weight. I feel you. ❤
I'd like to share something I read somewhere and it resonated so much, in a very comforting way: "I told my friend that I'am emotionally 'hitting a wall' and she said; "Sometimes walls are there so we can lean on them and rest"~ I feel our mind and body (as much it seems they work against us) work for us, that low sinking feeling is a reminder that something isn't going right, and we need to see/ do our best to self-soothe.
The thoughts are a good place to start with, how do you feel about talking about these racing thoughts? Just some way to acknowledge them and provide them a space to be~ outside your mind. They won't whoosh entirely, but in time, the impact they create on us lessen and they take lesser space in our mind. (We always deserve to have some peaceful breaths)
I'm really glad you're sharing here and hope you can cling tight to whatever that feels liberating to you at this time, from all the thoughts and sinking feelings. The "anchor" is within you, the anchor is always you.
You deserve to be compassionate with yourself, and be as gentle with yourself at this time specially. ❤ Sending love.
@chels384
I can relate Chels.
I'm going through something similar.
I don't remember the last time i felt completely relaxed and happy.
My head and chest always feels heavy.
@hardworkingKite6195
I hear you, I think I was 21 the last time I was footloose and fancy-free. I only know the carefree feeling is gone because when the sun and air are a certain way, or I smell a certain smell, it reminds me of those days, and for just a second I feel the way I did.
It takes a lot of intention for me to lift that weight off the top of my belly/bottom of my chest. I get almost there but part of the freedom of that feeling is not knowing how far from that pure contentment life can one day take you.
My sense of low-level anxiety is now over my children, my marriage, my aging parents, etc. Sometimes I imagine they will be grown, and I will find myself outdoors somewhere and a gentle breeze will bring that same freedom of youth when my happiness was in my own hands.
"Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn," -PJ "Black"