The stress of time, body and mind
I am posting here since I was just talking to a listener that turned out to be a scammer asking every inappropriate question so I reported them. That's a bummer, but anyways It feels like my body and my health is on the decline. I have been somehow single for 20 years, and I haven't ever stopped looking. I have some legal stress with a pending expungement soon, and I just don't know how to solve my problems.
I feel like I am super smart at least, still getting A's in math classes but I keep hearing women say I look attractive and yet nothing happens or no one is "that" interested in me. I had a bad start with another girl over 10 years ago and still feel abuse and trigger points when women do certain things. I could really use an expungement like now, but unfortunately I think the court is piled up with criminal cases, and that means I will be served last and I don't know when that "last" is since crime is high right now.
It's hard to be positive and shut out my own negative thoughts but I think I have CFS or some other issue like pre-diabetes. I can fall asleep at 2pm now and I'm always tired. I feel like a zombie that can't be happy. I was losing hope here and there with my relationship issues and now it's added on even more with my recent decline in health. I may go to the doctor tomorrow since I am pretty sure my waitlist should have called my name by now on a potential cardiologist.
Is there a step I should take, what issue would you address?