Still waiting for pain to go

And for my stomach to feel better

☹️

I swear

no more of that pie

🐙☹️🙏🏻 just no…

but seriously ….tho

i miss friend that I could tell this

for pain to go away

to not feel like it’s all heavy stones there

to be heard seen n loved

but like, I can’t name one nice thing ppl did to me or those I knew n cared about without me asking

like nobody would take care to surprise me or do something nice to me

and if they did out of some occasion, their gesture comparing to mine was much more smaller like it looked like they didn’t take much time or care

sometimes even grammar errors

one time or two it was something they got as part of being in literature club

I mean great

bit nothing hit personal as when I made that person diary with photos n stickers n my own writing

or virtually when I did send like e cards or similar

but I had to ask them if I wanted something back

know what they did?

Just downloaded some photos from internet n sent it my way

wt least they could use Al

or something on their own like one person I knew they were coding yk they could do me that

i even asked if they can code me like a flower

bah never once did

nor did they help w something i kept asking cuz they were native speaker n I needed it for my song

basically didn’t take it seriously from me…

i felt like begging when it came to them

thats why i stopped💔