I should make this a series istg
an ACTUAL conversation i just had with my mum:
Me: *goes on the porch to get a bottle of water* (we keep them outside to keep them colder)
my dog: *follows me outside*
me: *ties her to the dog leash because she hasn´t been outside today yet*
my mom: *laughs from the other room* you aren´t... actually... putting her outside?
me: yeah, she followed me out so i put her on the lead.
mom: why the *** would you do that? you know there´s a doordasher coming to bring us breakfast.
me: oh... (i forgot but i didn't want to say that because she would have accused me of manipulating her to ruin her morning ;-;)
mom: YEAH.. Haha. I don´t know why you´re trying to act stupid. You DEFiNITELY remembered that food was coming, like do you just not want me to eat? is that it? because i get enough of that from your brother. (my brother is 4 years old and does not have such malicious intents. neither do i.)
i just said sorry and went to my room because i didn't have the energy to fight. i literally woke up like 3 minutes before this happened. this is very mild compared to the other conversations we have, i will post some more in the comments. my mom is very erratic.(not an accusation or judgement... just a genuine observation. she seems to think that everyone in her family secretly hates her (most of them do but not secretly for abuse reasons) and that they all want to ruin her life by asking me to move out of her house. i think she´s bipolar but i don't know how to bring it up. i don´t want to hurt her in any way, but if she IS bipolar she needs to know, and to receive help. i know it can be very harmful to one´s own health and i don't want her to go through what she may be. i feel like this right here is a type of emotional harm people don´t talk about. ive NEVER met somebody that acts like my mom does.
anyways.
toxic is toxic. blood doesn't change that.