I just wanted to cry in her arms

Not quite sure if its for the best or worse but my mom has this unique ability to just make me cry

When i was younger it was for the worst because her opinion would be the only one that mattered to me and whenever she said something mean to me I cried like the world was ending 

Now my mom doesn't say anything mean to me because I have installed boundaries, wasn't easy but we got to this point

Im an adult now and life is hard (to say the least) and I've tried to stay strong and not cry in front of everyone (I've had enough breakdowns and tears on my own I dont need to do it in front of people) but my mom and her unique ablity gets me every time

She said she was happy for me over something that is a step in the right direction but feels like its a step in the wrong, when she said that, the way I just wanted to cry in her arms 

I didnt know it till reciently but I've always seen my mom as a supper hero, she has her falts and she falls short and they are a lot of tramas but she is my supper hero, its more then what she does for me and for the people she loves its who she is and I'm in a place where I can use some saving and I know if she could she would and she has already done as much as she can even with the little I tell her of how bad its goten. that little comment of her being happy for me altough I feel bad for myself just Idk