I feel like a failure

@powerfulBalloon7146

I can definitely relate to this! I also worked much harder than my peers and I was getting grades that were not as good as theirs and were merely satisfactory. I think it does feel demotivating and sometimes even frustrating when we work hard but do not see our effort in the results. No surprise you feel tired. Some people want to perform so well that in the end, it results in more pressure and this can backfire. Think of people who did terribly at school but they were extremely successful after in the real life. After graduating you are not going to be judged based on what grades you got but on what can you do and how well can you handle different situations. I know how it feels but keep on going!

Read a book every now and then of interest to you. I'm not saying you will get high grades then. I'm just saying you will see a different perspective. and you might encounter, many success stories. some, they were not at one time of their life good in a subject or two. some just rarely passing. They became very successful in life in the end. and some of course had awesome grades became great too at life. take care. thank you for the post. please excuse my manner

@powerfulBalloon7146

There is something you are really good at but you are not thinking about it right now. You are all caught up in the "grades" view of life. I remember meeting a member of my graduating class years later who was not that good a student. I think he said he got "C's". He was a very real person, though, and he could see through the fakes that were running around. They looked good at school, but were not so good at real life. He was doing well, though. He stayed focused on what was important to him in life, and life worked out for him.

@powerfulBalloon7146

I can definitely relate to this. I used to be better than most of my classmates but I'm starting to fall behind.

I can relate. Thank you for being so open here. It’s nice to know that I’m not alone in this.

This translates into many parts of life, even after graduation. i work as a technician for a pharmacy, and my coworkers go go go super fast when filling prescriptions, making their prescription count really high.

This is great because they can get things done quickly. But, often times, they focus so much on being fast that they run themselves to the ground, and then become irritable with our patients.

One focus in retail pharmacy work is delivering on accurate and speedy fills of prescriptions, but the biggest one is customer service… making sure that the customer understands everything in regards to their medications, as well as how to take them, and making sure that they feel safe and taken care of during their bouts with physical and mental health and well-being.

Many times, because of just coming from a 10 hour stint at the ER, or being diagnosed with an illness, or not having the access or funds for their medication, patients can become very frustrated and even irate.

That’s where I come in.

Where as, in general, my coworkers are more efficient at getting their prescription numbers in, I am more focused on ensuring that each customer i encounter is well taken care of while they are at the pharmacy. This, more often than not, requires less speed, and more patience. Often times it requires more in-depth research into their medication history, maybe making a half-hour call to a doctor or an insurance company at an in-opportune time, looking into an unheard of, or obscure discount card, walking a patient directly to a certain aisle to make sure that they get the right OTC medication, or even de-escalating an emotional response from a really rough day for the patient. Etc etc.

Looking from the outside… My fill-count numbers aren’t as high as my coworkers when it comes to filling prescriptions, but my role is even more necessary as our outstanding customer service keeps customers and patients coming back every time.

These outcomes aren’t reflected in numbers, but they are reflected in the faces of the people i encounter every day.

Your post really encouraged me today, because i was starting to doubt if what i do really matters, because the metrics are so largely focused on numbers, (which is why i came to this app after my shift actually) but your story reminded me that what i do really is important. More important than numbers.

@powerfulBalloon7146 same happened with me and now i am broken teared apart by my own mind. But i am trying toncope up with it

Thank you to everyone that replied, your kind words mean so much, thank you :)

@powerfulBalloon7146 Hi, being tired can really magnify bad feelings. Also, while you fixate on these scores, remember, it doesn’t mean you won’t find better ways to study and/or test in the future. At some point in the not to distant future, these will be in your rear view, barely visible. Breath!

— All the best

Everyone has a bad test score at some point. It’s expected, which is why we often take many tests and major tests are cumulative of what was taught. If you’re tired try to take a break if you can, it’ll really help I think. Later when you feel rested you can look at your test and notes and find out the correct answers, it might make you feel better about the test!

Grades lower than what you expected are there to tell help you identify what needs to be changed. Be it your studying strategies, paper attempting strategies or just the whole perspective about importance of grades in practical life. Don't feel bad. Just sit back, think and then start once again with a new energy and a new perspective. You'll be successful.