I am sitting here not able to move. I mssd many classes already. I already have a bad report card. I'm adding to it but I cannot make myself move from.here and join the class. I'm too scared.
I see that I am a coward. I'm a coward. I am a coward. I cannot . I am going to go back home. I don't know. I wish someone would help.me get 0ut of this but I'm stuck and I need to pull myself out. I cannot.
@courageousHuman2692 Felt the same for awhile. For me. One day you wake up. It doesn't matter no more. You have to choose; Stay this way, take it all in, let it beat you down, make you suffer. Or take it, absorb it, use all your feelings as fuel to keep moving forward, never ending, then you wont be afraid no more. Then you cross another bridge, once you get there. Sure you made it. You got everything you ever dream of happiness. But in the end when its gone, if you lose it. When death comes, will you welcome it?
@Wes1996
Sorry you felt this way too ðŸ˜
@courageousHuman2692
Cowards are actually some of the bravest people out there. Try pick one r two small things you need to do to help yourself get back on track. write it down. Look at it over and over. You will tick it off I know it, and go from there. Keep the fight up
@GoingWithGrace
Im Trying, I need to try harder ðŸ˜
@GoingWithGrace
Thank you for your support and response. It makes me feel less horrible about everything
I 90% messed up my semester by today. Just 10% left.
I realized, that when it comes to self-sabotage, I am acing.
Why am I doing this to myself 😠there is literally no one else to blame. It's all me. Why can't I succeed. What am I so afraid of
I feel terrified and guilty and don't know how to cope with it
Hi back after forever
TW This time i have hit another stone on my face (figuratively) im completely going broke and im completely defenseless.
Hi @Tiffany1151
I can imagine this is pretty weird also a weird place to tag you. I found u in forums, read the 1 good thing 1 bad thing post you made and since we cant talk privately i just wanted to add you to my writing space so you can write too if u wud like and i am here for you here. If u like u can tag me somewhere else whatever is comfortable for you. I just wanted to extend my hands to you (if u need) and hopefully u wud feel less unsupported than before.Â
Ik that im not the best supporter or cheerer or anything but i just wanted to um if u need i will try my best to be there for you in any way i can.Â
So im back.
I have something really huge. A huge realisation: i almost never say what im thinking. It is always filters. Full of filters. Im so fake. Pretending to be chill. Pretending to be ok with things im not.Â
When someone hurts me, i process it in secret and in silence, they dont even know anything thats going on. AGAIN NO one knows whats goijg on with me anymore
No one wants me.Â
Im just a blehh.
I wish someone wanted me you know. Someone cared. I just.Â
My parents are gonna be like? What more do u want. Not having my SELF *** ESTEEM DESTROYED¡