Help just to manage sexuality horror/panic and discomforts and everything
Hello, I've not really vented or written anything since the whole stalking thing or whatever it is. I'll just write anything without second though. My body can't feel safe or feels like panic and I get these brain burns when it comes to these thing, can I please know what to do for discomforts when it's that complete or blocked mentally? What am I supposed to orchestrate for safety and how to feel ok about trying to do that at all? I just mean m'
otherwise I can't really feel ok or safe about m' in general at times since at least a decade, but recently I don't know how to address panic/horror feelings in place of l'. I figured I'd ask since I want my body to be held, like I'm not remotely *** or anything I just want it to stop, and my brain is like burning please. nothing can feel ok or safe or adequate or tolerable at all often.
I couldn't care less about whatever nonsense is not happening (I am promising to not believe anything regarding stalking or conspiracies no matter how much it's a lobotomy.), I won't spend more time thinking or writing, my brain is burning too bad I want to be held so *** bad.
it's better than ever, but I can't deal for too long every time. please just anything for times while I'd have to function or for maybe having a way to deal or allow trying to feel safe about it if I get to move asap
@ScaredLongNeckedFrend
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@ScaredLongNeckedFrend I'm sorry to hear that you're going through a difficult time. It sounds like you're experiencing a lot of discomfort and panic related to the stalking situation, and you're not sure how to feel safe or okay about it. It's important to prioritize your mental health and seek support if you need it. Practice mindfulness by being fully present and engaged in the current moment without judgment or distraction. It can help alleviate stress, anxiety, and negative thoughts by focusing your attention on the present moment. Remember that it's okay to prioritize your mental health and take care of yourself. If you're struggling to function, it's important to reach out for help and support.
@miakitten9123
oh *** I'm sorry that's not the bulk of the post at all, I've not minded anything about that in awhile now. and *** no I'm alone on a few fronts
Thing is that lots of functions feel gated for safety and so on, and I couldn't really pinpoint what was panicky about those things and would rather not overthink them like I used to so to regulate. The horror feelings and other layers of fear have been a thing for like 7 years or so, can't recall when the dynamics flipped initially.
I just mean to ask for advice for some types of panic when they relate to sexual function or physical sensations, since it fuses with other drives and idk how to soothe, like m' would make it worse and I'm horrified of my genitals, I'm going to cut them off some time. It's not related to horniness at all, the feeling just mimics that via horror so nothing feels safe. Or I will not try to overthink that again, it's only pain.
I just mean to ask how to wait it out or soothe since it's quite the unique thing, drives kind of keep the horror in a cycle and my brain gets blank. It's not as bad since 2020 since I'd sort of work on it every day or often in safe spaces to reassure the brain, but holy *** it completely makes me not functional. Again it's not horniness or doesn't feel sexual, it's just panic that then morphs into a drive that expands to other reminders and subjects and keeps ramping until overwhelm feels incapacitating. I just freeze about it it's too much. I just want the organs to go away or the feeling to stop. and again, it's all semi blocked in unstable or varying ways, or everything feels separate or gated, so my fear of feeling all this kind of adds to the general confusion of it all. I'd rather be in pain or regular horror since it cycles and fuels itself with some type of horror drive
@ScaredLongNeckedFrend I'm sorry to hear that you're going through a difficult time. It sounds like you're experiencing a lot of discomfort and panic related to the stalking situation, and you're not sure how to feel safe or okay about it. It's important to prioritize your mental health and seek support if you need it. Practice mindefuellness by being fully present and engaged in the current moment without judgment or distraction. It can help alleviate stress, anxiety, and negative thoughts by focusing your attention on the present moment. Remember that it's okay to prioritize your mental health and take care of yourself. If you're struggling to function, it's important to reach out for help and support.
