Does anyone feel mentally unstable?
I don't know what is wrong with me anymore, I experienced episodes but never like this, I don't enjoy things I used to, I cry daily, or at least several days of the week, I am afraid I might go crazy, all I want is for it to end but it's so hard, meditations and talking helped for like one day and then I would go back to the same condition, I don't know what to do anymore, even in school I can't focus because of the negative thoughts.
If talking helped once, maybe it helps more if you do that everyday.
The worst thing can be feeling alone in these thoughts, but you're not alone, especially here. It sounds like you're dealing with depression at the very least, and that can be one of the hardest things to get out of. If you can force yourself out of it to reach out this far, maybe you can get the support you need by reaching out.