I wish I could tell everybody that...
That I don't mean to forget things, or lose focus, or be distant. I can't help it. I get so scared about where my life is going because I'm so unorganised and forgetful, I forget how I got to places and what I did during the day. I get so scared because alzheimer's runs in my family and all I can think about is that it's a sign of what's to come. I get in so much trouble in anything I try to do, university, jobs, because I just can't remember things that I really need to.
I can't talk some days. to keep calling feels like harassment to me.
i don't really know what i'm doing
everything will work out eventually!!! as long as you work in being the best possible version of you
@justaprogrammer Amen!
My father tells me since I'm a little child that he loves me but also he will die soon (now he's 63, he smokes, doesn't go outside at all and drink more wine than water)
@Twinkly so sorry for that
I'm bisexual, and hate not being able to be myself because I'm scare people will judge me. That i can't find my style and use makeup because i feel that is like betrayal myself, i don't wanna be superficial
Although I may feel distant or angry, I don't really mean it and it's just my emotions playing up and the only reason I don't talk is incase I might say or do something I'll regret in the future
I wish I could tell everybody that I have bipolar deppresion and that people think they know what it is but they don't get it, they don't know that it's a lot harder than what it seems like. They think 'oh she's just sad she'll get over it ' well yes I'm sad but it's far more then that, I have crazy ass thoughts going through this brain, just one little joke can hurt me, I hate wearing tight shirts, I hate how I look, I hate everything about me, I have trust issues ,my favorite people don't know I exist , my parents are alcoholics, I hate school, and I feel like dieing +1000 more thoughts but I won't bother you. So yes I am sad, but more.
@AliviaB sorry to know u're felling bad, you're right i don't know how really it is but still i wanna encourage u to believe that one day everything will look better, even if it's just a little bit, it will happen and since then everything is going to get even better. I hope you believe, just do it, I'm doing the same with my depression ☺
I always worry all the time, thinking about being abandoned again. I'm so sick of people always leaving me. Why do they have to do that? I just need someone to stay by my side. I didn't do anything wrong so why.
People at work: "You underestimate me and the difficulty of my job. Don't devalue what you don't fully understand"
Pretty much everybody else: "Thank you for your support and for believing in me. It matters more than you might think."