I wish I could tell everybody that...
Sometimes i just wanna go away, sometimes i do cutting, and i wanna die
I'm not always ok.
Im not a girl.
i'm gay!!!
....not a day goes by that my first conscious thought of the day is how much I wish I didn't exist. That I hate myself for not having the courage to make that wish a reality. That no matter what anyone tells me, I can't believe that there is anything about me that is deserving of being loved. That I have way too many days when I believe the words my spoke when I was six - that it would have been better for everyone if I just died from an accident when I was six nas five months old.
@BlakeMac I almost got hit by a car when I was little. On rare occasions I think that's probably when I was supposed to die and that's why it sometimes feels like the whole world is trying to tell me I don't belong here.
@Cauriel I know what you mean. I was four when I got hit by a car and the doctor's first diagnois is that there was too much internal damage and I would most likely die, But I didn't. And like you, many times I think that I was supposed to die that die. And because of death being somehow "cheated ", it's almost as if there is an outside "force" determined to make me pay for that by ensuring my life would be filled with so much pain that curse my survivng. I feel for you Curiel and know your pain. Because of that, I will hold you in my heart surrounded by acceptance and positive energy.
I wish I could tell people how bad things really are
My mum makes me very unhappy.
I don't genuinely care about what you're saying to me. The Oscar snafu, your wrestling team, your love for food and twitter friends. i wish I didn't have to hear it. My father is very sick. So much that he doesn't recognize me. I don't know when I'll go back to my home. Everything is changing around me. And that is all I care about right now. Nothing you say to me right now matters, and I don't trust you enough to share my family and personal life with you. I just want you to STFU and leave me alone, but I was raised to be polite and patient, so I let my brain go blank every time you open your mouth.
I just want to feel like i matter to you, a small gesture can go along way and why must we play games and just be wholehearted friends? Oh and why can't i just share all of me with all of you?
I am with him.
that he did what he did
we are ok now
But i am afraid that he will do it again
and if i share this to someone they will be by my side and start hating him and they don t understany that i love him and it hurts me
From womb to tomb, we are all connected. Tangled into the circumstance of life. Use your intuition more. Stop the distraction and feed your mind with the elements around you. That is where you will find harmony and perspective.
@kindCat9772
Woah!,Your words are fascinating!,truly inspiring!.
