I wish I could tell everybody that...
I honestly believe that I accidentally went through a portal at some point and ended up in the wrong world. I don't remember who I was or where I came from (or more importantly how to get back) but I have feelings and almost memories of before, and this world just doesn't feel "right" you know? I'm stuck here for the time being and just trying to make the best of it until I can go home. I didn't tell people this because they would think I'm crazy but it's true :)
I see my death as a liberation from the burdens my life has put on to people. That they would be happier with me gone.
@Ghost1and what if you are wrong? To late to turn back then.
@Ghost1 hey, just want to say that happiness depends on you and you can find it by being grateful with those little things that life has given to you (:
I push people away because I think help is a sign of weakness. When its the opposite
@jumpin the best thing to do is usually the harder thing to do. Choose carefully. Do it as an act of love to yourself. Lots of love xx
The me that they see everyday is a fake. I laugh and smile and seems to be having fun but in fact I'm barely holding on.
@Namnamm I prayed for you right now. I hope you will find peace. xx
@Namnamm I know how you feel, I battle similar feeling everyday and just try to hang in there with all my might
No I'm not ok when I say I am.
Don't judge me from my look. I am really nice person.and also why u look at my negative points only when there is a long list of positive points as compared to my negative one.
I trust people too easily, but I'm afraid to admit that. I expect too much from everyone, I wish I wasn't this way.
Im afraid, I don't trust, even over the smallest of things. My self esteem is so low that I can't do normal things with my boyfriend. I'm terrified of other people and compare myself, everyone else is always so much better and I'm living in a scared bubble. I don't know how to change this.
@Jvinal I have the same struggle.
I'm not as happy as everyone may think. Don't get me wrong, I have happy times or days but overall, I'm more sad and depressed then anything. I'll be having a bad day then someone will say something and trigger a memory and I'll be in a bad mood the rest of the day. Or the next few days. I never know.
That despite needing help, I do not ask for it as I worry about burdening others. I know they would most likely not see it that way but I don't want to worry them!
