I wish I could tell everybody that...

I struggle at times with procrastination and distractions whenever I am free from my full-time work to self-study on weekdays nights and weekends. I struggle with feelings of frustration, exasperation and anxiety and impatience about myself that make me lose my cool and I'm reflexively hard on myself thus on my family.

I'm feeling very lonely and it's getting overwhelming

That i'm not strong as them, and that i'm pretending

I care about them

I wish I could tell everyone that sometimes I just want to be alone. But sometimes I am scared of being alone.

I'm so done with life. That I do have feelings and needs. Yeah - maybe they're special but those belong to me! Accept it!!! I can't take work anymore - why can't you see it? Why do you keep telling me it's not that bad. Why don't you listen to me when I almost cry. Why don't you see it.

That I am not all put together, and that I am floundering.

That you are loved and you are valid, even if you don't think you matter I promise you do

I'm not everybody's therapist. I know I'm a strong and caring person, but please consider how I am from time to time. I can be frustrated and fed up with people too. Most people who want to talk to me all the time don't realise that they're getting on my nerves by being inconsiderate.

That I am in pain and lost about my life