I wish I could tell everybody that...
When I said I was ok I lied I haven't been ok for a while.
That is ok. Sometimes making believe you are ok helps you get through the day. Just keep searching for someone to tell. The more you talk the better you will eventually feel. @Lostalone02
Their support of my many issues over the last year has kept me alive. I am very grateful.
my bf is abusive, I want out but am trapped because of my stupidity.
@powerfulMaple1852
One beautiful day, I pray, you will never call yourself stupid again---and, instead, enjoy the bravery you had to communicate, and, take action.
@powerfulMaple1852 that I do feel depressed more than a few times, that even though I'm tough I feel broken; that I also need someone by my side and I wish I didn't always have to be the strong one; that I have trouble identifying my own sexual orientation; that I just feel like screaming even though I always say I'm okay; that I'm only human.
@powerfulMaple1852 Don't say that, you're not trapped because of your stupidy, you're trapped for legitimate realistic reasons, perhaps you're even trapped due to undying optimism, or due to an unhealthy but nonetheless remarkable seflessness. You're also quite smart if you're capable of facing the fact that he is abusive without lying to yourself. Letting go of him will be difficult, but if you consider it think first why are you really with him and what keeps you from leaving. Sometimes if we're really honest with ourselves it could be reasons that we can work with, like fear of being alone, fear of not finding someone with a particular characteristic, fear that no one else will accept us the same, or maybe somewhere deep inside the feeling that love conquers all. Whatever it is, don't discredit your feelings work with them not against them, but do keep yourself safe!!! Abuse is easy to understand when you're very compassionate, but it shouldn't be enabled and allowed. Remember that by continuously allowing a certain treatment it probably won't be perceived by the other person as an effort on your part, but rather that they can get away with their actions. I wish you best of luck, safety, happiness and lots of love!!! You're worth tender love and know that it does exist!!! 
@powerfulMaple1852 I just broke up with my abusive boyfriend. Trust me, you need to get out no matter how much you love him.
I wish I could tell everyone...
That I'm not always okay. That I need help. That I feel alone and need someone but I don't always know how to ask for help. That I'm scared.
@Purpleacedragon you're not alone, I'm here, I am also a bit scared, but I think being scared together is better than alone. Also sometimes thinking of other people's irrational fears can help us assume that maybe ours are just as irrational, or at least lets hope they are.
@Eillice
Thanks for understanding. That may not seem like much but it means a lot.
I know many of my fears are irrational. That doesn't help make them go away. Or make them easier to deal with. But hearing the words of understanding? That helps far more.
Addiction is not just mind over matter..
If it was, I would have stopped a long time ago.
that i do have depression and anxiety and i self-harm etc. i want to tell them how low i think of myself.], but i cant because i want to get better
@cottonfluff I hope you get better. Maybe talking to someone might help you get better. Chin up.
That I have put up with enough and people need to stop hurting me.
That I'm not okay. And I'm tired of being strong.
@NaeOver
It is ok to admit being weak and vulnerable...to the right people you can trust...
To stay calm, and just be happy. And love the people around you!
That I deserve to be alone forever, that Im a liar, pathetic fat cow
