I wish I could tell everybody that...
I am not snobby or judgemental, just too afraid to speak and certain I am unwated so I stay on the sidelines. My smile is fake, inside I am a tangled anxious knot.
I wish I could tell everybody that I can't control what is happening inside my own head. That I am exhausted. That I feel as though nothing is worth me putting any time of effort into. I just wish I could tell everyone that I am not as fine as I seem and that I'm slowly descending into a black hole with no way out. I can't control my emotions, and that I can't just get over it. I just want to feel happy. I just want to live a life where I don't have to worry about every little thing. I just want to stop feeling like this but nobody sees that. I'm trying to be happy just for everyone else and nobody knows anything about what is happening to me.
I just want to feel happy. Or is that too much to ask for?
@ LIST 1 11 you know what, there are monsters inside our heads, or the devil, hell bent on making you feel this way. Don't give in. Just try and think about good times and dont get sad while at it. Leo tolstoy once said, "If you want to be happy, be"
Hope this is of any relevance to you. Have a good day!
.....that I can be dramatic and crazy from time to text but can't help it because my emotions get the best of me. I just want to everyone to know that deep down I care about others feelings too, even thought I don't seem to show it. I'll be in a bad mood for no reason.
I am not the ecentric pysho that some take me to be. When i am excited, i am overly happy and my mind tends to wander to random things with the added fact i watch crime shows. So saying my chili looks like guts is just me happy and rambling on. I am tired of being misunderstood just for being happy in my own way. Though i might need to tone down to so i don't scare others. Wish me luck then!
@WildCherryCard
That is exactly what I'm like sometimes! People never seem to understand. Luck is wished to you indeed!
I care so much more than I seem too. I come off as really chill and that has caused a massive problem for me because everyone takes me for someone who couldn't care less about anything and that isn't true. I care so much and people don't seem to realise this even when I say it to their face.
I wish i could tell everyone that i do not wish to be misunderstood, is just that i really find my emotions to be really hard to express. I want to be understood too.
i want to feel love but how?. I'm a loner i like being alone than being around with the people who don't understand me
#badenglish
That.. i am not okay. I am depressed. I live in my imaginary world most of the time(i am a maladaptive daydreamer). I may seem to be calm and composed outside, i am a complete mess inside. Struggling with my overwhelming mind and emotions.
I wish i could tell the few people who love me that they mean a world to me and i want to be with them.
I want to let my mother know that i am not lazy, instead i am not motivated. I want to play, draw, sketch, create but don't know why i am unable to do it.
I am a really fragile being.
I want to help people.
Since last few years my days are fading in oblivion and i am succumbing to this habit of mine to drift away from reality. I have directed a lot of movies inside my head. I am dying from inside. And i am afraid that i will not be able to snap back from this and live my life the way i want.
@supernova49 Add on ten to fifteen minutes of drawing to your usual schedule. If you have any other practice or activity that is routine and daily, like showering or cleaning, then tie drawing to the end of that habit. For example, if you always eat dinner at 6 pm, then add drawing to your routine after dinner. Here is a little plan to get your creative juices flowing:
week 1: spend ten minutes a day staring at a blank sheet of paper with a pencil in your hand. Just fantasize about what your drawings will be like... make notes of what you used to enjoy drawing and what you might want to draw nowadays.
week 2: spend fifteen minutes a day doing one BAD low-quality drawing. Your intention should not be to produce your best work.
week 3: spend fifteen minutes a day doing a drawing of some mundane aspect of your life.
day 1: everything that you ate that day.
day 2: everything you wore that day.
day 3: all the electrical devices you used that day.
day 4: quick sketches of each person you spoke to or thought of that day (or that week)
day 5: spend fifteen minutes making ten sketches of your own face with one speech bubble per face that shows one word to summarize each feeling you had that day.
day 6: draw three panels (like a little comic) to illustrate one thing that you worried about that week.
day 7: draw three panels to show someting that you hoped would happen or wanted that week.
week 4: Try to go over an old drawing or one that really meant something to you and do a better higher quality version of that drawing. You can work on perfecting one aspect of the drawing each day.
week 5: put what you studied and perfected in week 4 together into different versions of your drawing. Make a fat version, an animal version, a tall version, a short version, a sexy version, a nerdy bookish version.
If you get into the habit of drawing daily, then you'll soon start coming up with things that you really like. I'm also on an artistic journey where I'm trying to develop my own style. It's frustrating and not easy, but it's sooooo worth it. There's nothing I enjoy more than creating stuff.
They say that even disney animators begin their work by scribbling wierd little shapes together - they don't start the day on a big intimidating project.
This is Frannerd, an illustrator from Chile who lives in London and her artwork is very inspirational and might give you the kick that you are looking for...!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hg0_W71BkS8
We all have feelings and we arent better than anyone else
I am okay but I am really not. :( I wish i could tell it to them, especially to my friends and family this thing that bothers me. But i am afraid to be judged. :(
