stopped talking with online friends

Hi, I stopped talking to my online friends and I've been wondering, was that a good idea?

I have a *** server with a bunch of folks that we've used for a few years now for chatting and gaming etc. At some point I've stared feeling like no one really wanted to hang out with me, like I was never really invited to anything. I've realized that I'm constantly checking the server if anyone is looking for a group to play with so I can hop in. If there was a group of people in the VC I'd sometimes join in and either ask if I can play or just sit there and watch someone stream something and chat a bit. I started feeling that if I stopped forcing myself into our group activities people would just forget I even exist.

And so I just stopped.

A part of me was kinda hoping that someone would notice and maybe dm me, ask me what's wrong or if I'm okay. It's been several months now and I didn't get a single message. Like I know I'm maybe not the funniest person around and I don't have any crazy stories to tell, like I'm really shy and kinda awkward...it kinda hurts, y'know.