I lost my friends due to my mental health
Hello there, I usually don’t do this kind of stuff but I really am in a tough spot and I feel very ashamed. I recently lost my online friend group due to suicidal and mental health behavior. I feel incredibly guilty because I freaked out over a small issue after having a bad day and this caused my friends to put me in “timeout”. They expressed to me that my health has made them guilty and fearful of what I’d do to myself and it’s true, I had 3 attempts in November and they had to deal with it. They also commented how I’ve made them feel forced into a support system. I feel incredibly guilty because I truly didn’t mean for this to happen. They told me if I’m truly sorry they need to see some real changes and get professional help. I did have a therapist until she moved away, and I am very fearful. I really want my friends back and I want to be a better friend and person, my doomer mindset has consumed me and now I’m afraid and even more distrustful of people. I am wondering if anyone else has experienced something like this too? What steps can I take to be a better friend? How can I prove to them that I’ll try to pick up the pieces again? I want to clarify I don’t expect people to know what to do or say in this situation but if anyone has gone through something similar, I’d really like some advice and some tips? Once more, I don’t expect people to help me out or give me an answer. I just miss my friends and I want them back.
thank you for reading, I appreciate it
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Write down 50 things that you are genuinely thankful for. Take your time and put some genuine thought into this.
Write it on a piece of paper, not on your phone.
Put it next to where you go to sleep
Wake up every morning and make it the first thing that you read.
Then get outside in the early morning sun and take a 10 minute walk And do 10 push-ups.
Then write on a piece of paper “(your name) is getting stronger every day, And I’m going to help somebody today,”
And do all of that in the morning before you look at your phone.
then make it your mission in life To encourage one person that that day, Or to notice something positive about them, Or to help them out.
so now, instead of telling them every day That you need Them to Focus on your pain every day, You can tell them that you accomplished your morning Walk and you push push-ups, You got natural vitamin D from the morning sun Which helps your mood a lot, You can tell them one of the 50 things that you are grateful for if you want to, And you can be reading what your online friends are going through thinking hard about which one you’re going to encourage today, Which one you’re going to celebrate because of something they did Or who they are, And they’re going to see after a while that you are building a positive force and becoming a positive force. And then Next time you have a really down day, Say Something like “ Hey everybody, I’m going to be OK, I know I’m going to get through this, but I just need to vent please. And I don’t need any answers. I just need to know that you’re still my friend. Today I’m having the worst possible thoughts, And it feels incredibly terrible, And would you please just reply That you’re still my friend or any little bit of encouragement?. That was so much help me get through today, And I’m determined to make tomorrow a new day. I’m going to make it through this And I am so grateful for each of you!”
And pray hard like you believe God is there and cares. I couldn’t believe it, but The more raw and real And honestmy prayers were The more I started seeing positive things happen. And don’t dismiss any of this unless you’ve really really tried it 2 months in a row. Yes, I’ve been there, it did work for me.
