A Ruined Christmas
Merry Christmas everyone! Well not that merry for me...
It was supposed to be a lively Christmas... But the vibe was all ruined, thanks to my mom. I got a lot of hurtful and shameful words from her just because I can't do simple tasks right. How am I supposed to learn with all the yelling? I would've done it right in a proper way of teaching. That's why I learn everything all by myself, because I don't wanna hear another words from her of from my dad anymore.
She is also a religious person, well actually, an OVER religious person. Even though she reads the bible and sing worship songs and attends church services (I'm a born again), her ways of living are still the same. Nothing ever changes on her. We even attended a family retreat from our church, but she is still the same as before. She also forced me to join in a religious youth community, hoping that I would "share the gospel" after her, But I don't feel like it, I had dreams too.
I'm sorry if a religious person comes here, I just wanted to share my recent feelings. I've got nothing against God or Jesus, or the religion. So please don't attack me.
@P3pperm1nt
Heyy, peppermint! I'm sorry to hear that you aren't having the best Christmas ;( Also, we totally get that you are just expressing your feelings which are valid. It is definitely not easy living in an household that fights or yells all the time. I would see why you would do things all by yourself.
Your mom probably wants you to experience whatever she experiences with the choice she has made in life but, and like you said indirectly, you are a different individual with different dreams and that the more she restricts you, the more you end up disliking what you do. I'd say have a talk with your parents and tell them everything you felt from the start, about how you ended up doing things on your own as you're scared of getting yelled at and how you just wish to feel like a family. The best way to get your feelings across is by communication. I really do hope that they understand you and your dreams. <3
