Struggling In Attempting Recovery *TW Behaviors*

I'm so sorry to hear about your struggles. Recovery is so damn hard, I totally feel you on that and understand. I want to remind you that relapses and struggles like this are so common, normal, and expected, even. They are totally okay. It is more than okay to struggle and have set-backs in recovery, after all, it wouldn't be recovery if we didn't have to fight against the eating disorder. I know that in my recovery, there have been multiple times where I've tried to hide food or somehow work my way into a lower calorie option if possible, even if my day might have gone really well recovery-wise just the day before, or even minutes before. Things aren't always perfect, and they aren't expected to be. It's okay to make mistakes or do things you're ashamed of or sink back into an eating disorder behavior, that does not define you or your worth or your recovery. You are so strong and I'm so proud of you for even taking the steps to begin recovering and in the right direction. The progress you have already made is huge and that is something you should be so proud of. What you're doing takes courage. Having setbacks does not at all diminish that progress in any way, it does not make you any less brave or strong or courageous, all it does is show yet another example of how incredible you are for fighting this disorder. It helps me to reframe my thoughts sometimes by separating the Eating Disorder voice and me. Sometimes it helps with guilt to remind myself, "The eating disorder was strong today and led to me making this decision" rather than putting the blame on myself. It may not work, but it helps me sometimes. :)

I'm your reminder that relapses do not diminish recovery. You are so strong and amazing as you are and I believe in you. You can do this. I know it's hard. It's so hard. It hurts like ***. But you are a warrior. Here's your motivation to take that bite. Eating gets easier when you can muster up the strength to take the first bite. But if it doesn't, that's okay too. But either way, you can do this. You can recover and it is so worth it to recover, and we are in this together. I believe in you friend. Take that bite and remind yourself of how strong you are, remember this is not a failure, but another obstacle that you can overcome and look back on with pride. This is just the eating disorder trying to cling onto you again - Beat his *** friend. 😊