Recovery downs

@willingClementine8601 I totally understand and can relate to the feelings of feeling unworthy because i feel ugly. I am very proud of you for recognizing the fact that there is no correlation between the two. That is an amazing step to take. I have also been in recovery for a year now and body image is very difficult to deal with. Something that has stuck with me is that "your body is the least interesting thing about you". So basically, as hard as it is to comprehend, no one really cares about your appearance. They care about your personality. I know that it is hard to believe in the moment but maybe wearing comfortable clothes or lighting candles or feeling something soft/warm can help soothe your thoughts

I’ve been “recovered” & “weight restored+ a lil more cus I’m way older than when my ed started*. I struggle most days. I can’t do “gym” exercises anymore because yeah big trigger. I do flow yoga at home now which REALLY helps, and walk a bit. I’ve been with my husband for seven years, and he met me when I was in the deepest depths of my disorder. He says he’s just as attracted to me now as he was then (which most of the time is too hard for me to believe). He gives me SO much love, so sometimes I do believe him. I don’t think I can ever love myself, but I work at it every day. It’s my potentially never ending project. I’m working towards body neutrality. This is my body. It is what it is. It takes care of me, and carries me through life. You are not unlovable. You will find someone who loves you for you. Self compassion is hard, I mean I’m still working on it, but I truly believe working on it/practicing it every day will eventually truly help.

I’m so grateful for all the replies! You made me feel better, thank you.

I’ve been taking a time out, just reflecting and I can feel this dark cloud pass.

You are truly amazing and reading each one of your words made me feel understood, something that I haven’t felt ever.

I wish you all the best!