Hey there! Recovery is a very tough process to go through, and at times, it can seem like there's absolutely no point in spending another day fighting for what seems to be the losing side. You are doing great so far, take a second to note your accomplishments and your desire to get better!
Recovery is different for everybody, so nobody will ever be able to give you a good time frame on when you can accept these changes. Something that a YoutTube video Laura (one of our community managers) posted always sticks with me now, and it's that sometimes you "don't get less uncomfortable, [you] just get more comfortable with being uncomfortable." Recovery can be idolized by people who have made it past the relapsing point, but it may always be a struggle. In times like this, leaning on close friends or family or even one of our lovely Listeners here at 7 Cups can be really useful for your journey.
As for attending university again in September, it can seem really overwhelming, especially if you've already had to leave due to your eating disorder. The future is very terrifying because naturally, humans feel anxious when they don't feel like they are in familiar situations or are out of control of a particular aspect of their lives. Spend the next few months focusing on your progress,finding adequate coping mechanisms, and promoting positivity in your life and school will go swimmingly for you. Take pleasure in the small victories. Find beauty in the changes your body is making, even if it seems like it's the last thing you can ever do.
You are so strong for enduring the process of overcoming this disorder and sharing your story here on 7 Cups. I wish you the best of luck as you continue on, and just keep in mind these three things: it's okay to be uncomfortable, it's okay to feel sad, and most importantly,it's okay to forgive yourself. You are doing awesome.
