introduction and sort of vent
hiii, i’m lili, i’m 13, i’m new to this group
idk if what i have counts completely as an eating disorder, but here it goes…
so, basically, my parents are too fixed on making me eat healthy, force feeding me fruits when i’m already full until i feel like i’m going to throw up, and they’ve commented on my body my whole life
bear in mind, i’m almost underweight, but it doesn’t stop them from saying things like “don’t eat too much or you’ll be fat”, whenever i eat anything
three months ago, i was in a really really bad place, i was having problems with drugs and mood and ended up losing 8 kg
during that time, i got a lot of compliments about my body, not creepy, but things like “you like nice recently”, which felt really nice, even though i was underweight
i also get very little freedom for myself and constantly feel suffocated by my parents
now, i starve myself, for two reasons:
- because it’s one of the only things i get control over
- because it’s like i’m addicted to the compliments i got given
idk what in specific i’m struggling with but yeah, thanks for listening to my rant
