Hi I am Lara

I am 17 years old nad I struggle with food for almost 3 years. It all started in 8th grade when I stopped growing. As a child I had always been skinny because I am tall and I was active. When I had stopped growing my shape changed and became a little bit bigger. In biology we learned about calories and I decided to lose like [edited by Anomalia for weight specifics] kgs. It was going great for 3 months. I had reached my goal weight but I wanted to lose more and more. I started to skip breakfast and lunch. Everyone noticed that I had lost weight and it encouraged me to keep going. In the summer I was working out several hours a day and eating very little( i don't want to mention calories) . I would stay up late so I would not have to have breakfast and so on. My family and friends started to tell me to eat and that I am too skinny. When I would go out with my friends I would tell them that I have already eaten and my family that I will eat them. When we had gone back to school everyone was bothering me to eat and asking me why I am this skinny. But the turning point was when I fainted in the mall. I started to eat more because I wanted them to leave me alone and I wanted to get my period back. But I couldn't stop. I had terrible binges and I couldn't stop after my weight had restored. Covid came and it got even worse in the first lockdown. I had terrible binges and I felt like that I don't have anything to enjoy in life. In the summer I started to purge after binges and I mantained my weight. It went like that until last november. We got into second lockdown and i decided to count calories again and started to working out again. I had lost 5kgs but I was starving myself again. Now I have binges again and I feel so miserable. I want to get help but i don't know how to tell this to my family. In the other hand I don't think I am sick enough.