ednos?

ive had a long history with ed, about 2 years ago i started starving myself even though i was very underweight, told my parents and they put me in therapy (i then got diagnosed with anorexia) but i hated it so so much to the point where i nearly ended my life. i convinced them that it had gone away, and it honestly had for a bit so they let me stop about a year ago. but lately ive been having the same kind of thoughts but now its not as much that i want to starve myself i just feel a) very uncomfortable talking about food b) dont want to be around it c) get very overwhelmed and anxious when i see a lot of it (aka at my school canteen) d) self conscious eating in front of people e) i do skip some meals but not as much as i used to. i can’t tell my parents it has come back or the will just put me back in therapy which i literally can’t do. i dont think i have anorexia anymore but i might have a different ed. does anyone know what it could be? thanks :)