Not eating
When I get sad I either eat too much, or nothing at all. I feel like I dont deserve to eat, I feel Ike I'm failing. I know I need to eat something but of I do I'm just going to feel disgusting and get sick. I just don't see a point in fighting it anymore, it wins I don't need food. I give up
@EmilyDeyes
It sounds like you are in a very hopeless place with your eating disorder, and maybe very tired. It's really hard to fight an eating disorder because it impacts all of your physical, emotional, intellectual and spiritual self. That can be just exhausting!
I'm really glad that you posted. This is an incredibly difficult struggle to go through alone. When you were fighting for recovery, what was it about recovery that you wanted from the fight?
I'm hearing you loud and clear Emily. I hope you will find the strength to fight again soon. Being in the eating disorder is exhausting too. In the mean time, try the basics at least to hold the balance to give yourself a fighting chance from where you are not, and not in a place that is even more difficult to come back from.
You are worth every step of the fight for you.
