My Eating Disorder

@jesusredeemedme2425 I have the same issue. There are things I eat as a “reward” and the thing is afterward I feel physical discomfort for a long time. If I ate a moderate “reward” it would be ok but it’s also the combo of foods (chips, salsa, candy, carbonated beverage). Even when I eat healthy I’m like, I should be able to eat as much veggies as I want since it’s “healthy” food.

I read an article about us inheriting trauma genetically. I think my great grandparents must have been starved. So I’m eating for me and them! 😂

My intention is to try and eat smaller meals at first. Like only put half of what I usually want on the plate. Eat that and wait for half an hour and if I’m still hungry, eat more.

Pasta is one of the foods that I know I should be careful with, but if it’s been a tough day or I’m really hungry my vow of restraint is easily overridden. 

Today I at least remembered not to “reward” myself too much.

To me eating disorder means wrong relationship with food.

So, yeah i also kinda like this, maybe because culture as well that highlighting food as a reward or treat for celebration. Even its funeral, we eat food. Food for healing, food for comfort, food for living, and food as friend.

In time when i feel lonely and needing food to fill my mouth i eat no other stuff but fiber. Or ice cubes. Or banana. Anything that wont help me gain weight. If i gain weith i will not eat in the bare minimun until my weight is back to i usually are.

Hi, I also am struggling in a similar way! Using food for soothing difficult feelings.

It's it really medicine if you like it too much and you are overeating? It sounds like you have an ED, but I have to s respectfully disagree with the analogy to medicine.