I feel like crap, just purged and have a feeling im probably going to do it again. I have been fighting the urges for almost 4 hours.
I also have to eat lunch (my mum made it for me last night when she was mking hers for work) and my parents especially my mum wants me to go on the tredmill which I then use it in a harmful way because my thoughts are killing me on rhe inside.
Sorry, pretty sure no one even bothered reading rhis anyways. I just want it to stop, all i want to do is purge right now even though i havent reallh eaten anything. Im not sure if im meant to say im safe or not but if so, safe i guess, might do my jobs (unfortunatly inclueds tredmill) then write.