Binge eating
I’ve struggled with over eating since I was a kid , I use food to cope with things I go through and I honestly hate it , I’ve recently tried dieting and I was doing well but then something happened and it made my depression/stress worse which led me back to binge eating and I just feel so disgusted with my self, and my parents constantly telling me that I need to lose weight because I’ll look better doesn’t help , it’s gotten so bad to the point where I can’t even to stand to look at myself in the mirror and try to avoid doing so at all costs , people dont understand that I live with my body every single day and I know I need to lose weight and I look disgusting, but trying to find other ways to cope with my problems is so hard and being addicted to food makes it worse , when I see pictures of myself I honestly want to peel my skin off and somehowe become invisible , dealing with this is so draining.
Hi @draven99! I relate to your situation so much that every word in your post is a direct reflection of what I feel every day. It gets frustrating to feel your fat make appearances in your body as you sit, stand, walk, or do anything. Keeping your legs from touching the surface while you are sitting, or keeping your hands stuck by your sides to hide the fat on your sides gets so frustrating, that sometimes you wish you could reach in and get rid of it. My entire family just tells me to "go start working out" constantly but, it is not as easy as it is simple. I have started and failed so many times. "Eating less" only lasts for two days before I start searching around the kitchen for anything--cookies, Nutella, crackers and the second you are done eating for that time, unbearable guilt washes over and all I can say is "this is the last time" while, very well, knowing it is not. However, I hope we both can get through this hard term of our life and maybe, finally, be able to take care of ourselves as we wish and, finally, be able to look at another person without shrinking and hiding parts of ourselves.
@draven99
There may be other ways to compensate for the eating, maybe you can try binge watching TV series? °ʚ(*´꒳`*)ɞ° (I think the effect is less than eating, tho you need to get enough sleep too)
im 38 now and this is similar to how my ED started
