Back

Welp, I’m back. I took a break from here for a bit—not even really intentionally, I just stopped logging in. It’s difficult for me to see that I’m in the same place I was when I was here last. Even though I’ve met with my therapist and dietician regularly, I still battle beliefs about myself that I feel will never go away. I can stop purging (and I have) but I don’t have hope of stopping the self hatred. My entire life has been controlled by my hatred of my body, and I’m afraid that’s what the rest of my life will be too.

Sorry. This isn’t very positive or uplifting, and I don’t want to make anyone here feel worse. I just needed to “enter back in” and be honest about where I’m at.