Always guilty
I have struggled with bulimia for years and bad self esteem since I can remember. I keep having binge episodes even when I think I’m doing better. I always feel the need to purge because I just can’t feel confident in my body. I’m always guilty of what I’m eating but then I can’t stop. My meds only help half the time. Summer is making it worse because how am I ever supposed to feel confident in a bikini? Whenever I’m stressed about it I start eating to shut off my thoughts and the cycle continues. I don’t know what to do anymore.
@Seashellgiraffe I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through this. It sounds incredibly tough to deal with. Have you considered talking to a therapist or counsellor who specializes in eating disorders? They can help you develop strategies to manage binge episodes and work on improving your self-esteem. It's also important to be kind to yourself and recognize that recovery takes time. If you ever want to talk more about what you're going through, I'm here to listen without judgment.
Heyo! I’m Breathe! I am big on framing things as body-acceptance rather than body-positivity. Let me tell you why. There are going to be days or hours or even just moments where you might not like how your body looks. But if instead of always trying to love your body and how it looks, what if we frame it as how do I accept that my body is what it is and the way my body is allows it to work for me.
I say this in relation to feeling confident in a bikini. What if instead of focusing on being confident, you focus on having fun at the beach or pool or wherever you are going. If the focus is on fun rather then being confident or feeling perfect in a bikini maybe that’ll help!
Also I feel that we don’t need to fit in our clothes our clothes need to fit us! Make sure you are wearing the correct size in clothes!
Respectfully,
Breathe
@Seashellgiraffe i’ve been there too and it’s hard. i struggled w/ bullimia since i was in 4th grade. at first to me, it seemed like a great idea. like i had found a glitch in reality; i could eat and not gain weight. seemed too good to be true; and it was. after time, as you probably know, it becomes obsessive and painful. and it is SO HARD TO STOP. it took me a day to start, and years after to quit. but, i promise you it is possible. the image that you have of your body is distorted, though that isn’t your fault. we are force-fed these ideas of what a “perfect body” is, but in reality there’s no such thing. i have been overweight and underweight, tried all different work-out routines and diets, but still none of that made me happy w/ my body. the only thing that has made me happy with my body is loving it how it is. accepting that i am who i am and that’s beautiful. i hope you can start a journey of self- love too because YOU. DESERVE. IT. you deserve to be happy, and i promise you you are more than the number on the scale. you are more than the size of your clothes. you are more than those voices in your head that lie to you and tell you there is something wrong with you. you are a beautiful person regardless of how much you eat or how much you weigh. you don’t owe it to others to “fit their standards”. you are perfect the way you are, and even though you don’t know me, i care about you and i want to see you get better, because i see my younger self in you. stay strong 🩷