trying to cut out sugar from my diet
Looking all over the internet for support forum with thread for people who are working to eliminate sugar from their diet. I did it once. Or even twice. But now I have inched back to sugar in my diet. apples. Peaches, chocolates. Once you stop its hard to stop. I even had halloween candy. i had not had any of that in many years. I remember that giving up sugar is difficult. But if I eat it then I have all sorts of horrible cravings. So there is no good choice other than to eliminate all sugars once again. I am too tired to go through this alone again. I do not like the 12 steps and traditions of OA. I tried it.
Maybe if I give it up again I will feel better. But its excruciating giving it up. Trying to medicate the pain of grief, depression and isolation. Trying to medicate with food. I am too tired to keep dealing with this ED. i am not overweight. Not by any means. But if i were not hypervigilanti would be. I am too tired and worn to go on this way. This ED has ruiened my health by starving. And it drives me crazy trying to not gain back what I lost. ( over and over and over again. yoyo) I am too tired and old for this. Trying now to go back to sugar free diet. I cannot have just a little bit. This is not how my mind works. Thanks for reading, if you did. Oh I am tired and in pain !!