Not sure what my deal is anymore
pinkteacup2002
May 13th, 2023
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My anxiety has been changing my eating habits that I keep thinking about food. I'm aware that food won't hurt me but I get scared of choking on it. I don't care if food has an affect on my appearance which is why I'm wondering if it even counts as an eating disorder. I already feel like a burden on my parents for not eating well, which makes my anxiety worse, further starving myself even more. It's like I don't deserve food at all. I just don't know who else to turn to when I am financially not well enough to find a therapist in this country. I get so frustrated with myself that I'm not gaining any weight at all and recovering from this is hard on my own.