Melancholy life of obese politecup

Hard to share

at the age of 9 i started to absorb that I am an obese child and very different from others. Very hard fact to understand as a child.

I spent my life being abused by mom bcuz I'm obese and being offered food by her continuesly and I'm not allowed to refuse.

Food was my protection from all form of abuse :'(

Spent my life getting lectures and advices from every single person who met me even taxi driver on how i can lose weight. BUT never anyone asked me Why have u gained this weight!

I've been told that I'm a big disappointment in every body's heart and a constant reason for unhappiness

I've been told how unsensitive i am and careless and stupid for being obese basically from everyone i met even doctors!

I managed to make like 3 successful diets and losing a lot of weight. Like a looot but only to gain much much more once I'm done

Biggest achievement was [weight edited by 24Help1 kgs in 1 year only to make horrible car accident after that and remain in bed for a month and couple more with slow move for recovery and i gained [weight edited by 24Help1] kgs more very soon.

Forced to do Gastric bypass surgery and continue to hurt my self with food

Today therapist asked me do u wanna lose weight, couldn't say yes :'(