It's like food tastes different after recovery
I have been behavior free for 2 years now (though mentally is a whole other story) - but something I have noticed in the last year, is food tastes different. But in a weird way. There were the foods I used to "live" on, when I was restricting, mostly because was "low calories" and I would swear by, would tell everyone how amazing it was and how much I loved them and list 10-20 benefits. Certain cookies, mug cake recipes, pancake recipe, certain combinations of food that after I started following a meal plan 2 years ago (which followed for about 4-5 months) stopped eating slowly. Then when I go back to trying them, especially the types of cookies or cereal bars I used to only buy, it doesn't taste the same.
Those foods taste bland, when they used to taste good. Which is funny, when you consider that foods I used to binge on used to taste like heaven. It's like own taste buds have changed, during those years struggling with ED behaviors, it's as if they were heightened and anything would taste 10x higher.
Anyone else experience this?
It's so weird because I bought last month a box of cookies I used to buy, and actually bought when I first tried recovery because was something saw people on "recovery instagrams" eat, and at the time tasted great. But now they taste terrible to me. And yeah I also dropped those pages soon after because when I mean first tried, it means it failed big time (but that's for another time). I actually threw them away, because even my parents don't like them.
Not to mention I have old packages of foods, still. Things I bought that used to eat and love, but actually don't make sense to me. It's something that when I try, I just think "I used to love this?! Did I brainwash my brain into loving this because the calorie counter seemed pleasing?" - it seems like only plausible options. I placebo'd myself, I used power of suggestion on myself and without realizing.