I'm not sure what it is, what I am

@Cheshire94

Write here what bothers you, please. Eating disorders are serious.
But also keep in your mind that we can't diagnose you or similar.
If it sounds like you have it, then I can recommend going to the psychiatrist and starting treatment.
Even if you don't have it, you deserve help for any kind of problem, remember that.
Some therapist can help you with psychotherapy for the problem.
Just please, please remember that your problems are valid, okay ?

Sending you hugs

So in jr high/high school I would eat salads at my new school everyday for lunch (no biggie). It wasn't really an issue, I enjoyed salad. Then people started calling me names about it like saying that I look like a rabbit when I eat and other mean things, so I started eating in a bathroom no one used. And eventually got to the point of only drinking green tea for lunch. I lost about [edited by Anomalia to remove weight specifics] lbs and was [edited] lbs. Which was the thinnest I'd ever been as a teen. My mum would tell me I should wear a girdle because of my hips (probably only [edited] inch of fat there) when she was a size [edited] and I was a size [edited]. Anyways after two years at this school they pulled me out and I never finished high school. After that I became vegetarian and after about 9-11 months, vegan. I was vegan for a year. Without going into an even longer story, I was lied to and told I couldn't be vegan anymore for "medical reasons". So I started eating "regular".

Anyways now after two pregnancies and at size [edited], I feel like I'm addicted to food. I've tried to detox, and am currently on a juice & smoothie cleanse but I get sick to the point of needing to eat something bready to settle my stomach. I want to not feel like I NEED sweets or (unhealthy) grains. And lately I feel like the only way to loose weight is just not eat, even though I know it's not healthy. I generally eat healthy but I can't loose weight. And the depression and anxiety makes it hard for me to get out and exercise and I feel so self conscious I dont

Im not sure if i should post herebor not im not a binger in the true sense of what i know a true binger is to be. Id like to clarify for my own mental health

baZ😎🍉